Today it could be a bad day for me because everythings goes wrongly.What i worried from last time finally happened ~ I was suffer of insomnia .. I cant sleep ,cant eat even keep vomit ..When i lying on the bed ,close my eye try to rest the fucking heart was pain...I try not to think anythings just forget it but i cant..The words that i was so sensitive was flying surrounding me ~ hate that  fucking feeling..its killing me.  I hope that u giving me a good explain but that impossible i think.She never away from your heart even during we together .  U will always care her more than comfort me when i was sad. U really hurt me deeply when i need you the most....I knew everything had changed. Btw throw away  the candy floss that i wish to give u when i meet u today ..That bring me alots sadness .. Oh my god i really need a pill to help me now.. I need to relax my mind . = (